Is July 2014

Aww.. my last post was half year plus ago, just to update abit..

Jan to may wasnt that bad, i got what i want n most of the things went the way i want.
The starting of May trimester, n im a Year3 student now, things went wrong.
I was busy with my event & event & event since week1, n now it's coming to the end of week6 ( mid term is coming soon)

The fri to sun of week1, 30 may to 1june, my very successful event in my life- I-camp. The camp itself is like a baby to me, how much we worked tgt, spent time tgt, struggle tgt & made it. It was a miracle to me =)
Also, the first time ever in my life to be thrown to the swimming pool, met a guy who offered to piggyback me & being carried by a guy on his shoulders itself. x) My main point is: he is charming !

Week2, 7 June, The Grant a wish Charity Musical Night =) It was awkward for not knowing who is in committee team, but with 1 aim : to make it successful, we blended well to each other. I might nt rmb their names but I got to know a different gang of frens. Also, the guy,edward who injured himself bcoz he was too responsible. bone fracture. You never know how it feels until u experience it urself. I have to say the moment i saw his face & his leg, my heart just feel so bitter. None of them offer to send him to hospital that makes me wonder are they still in shock? The first time in my life sending ppl to hospital, emergency. Please dun let me experience it again. I dun want to send anyone to hospital again. The feeling is heart breaking. ps: i sent him there without bringing money,ic & driving license. thank god that there was no police.

Week3, The lady, huixian, admitted to hospital due to dengue =( went to teman her for 3hrs. thank god she is fine now. Once again i didnt get car sticker, was so hard for me to accept the fact. i teared when i was alone, so helpless. my car was clamped.

Week4, Went to sydney's party. Enjoyed other than the cat that keep interrupt. Went to attend the blue ocean strategy talk by Mr Kenth. The talk was impressive & the way he shares his experience with us, so much to learn in life. whenever i play candy crush, reminds me of him, bcoz he mentioned that when others are candy crushing u are doing smtg meaningful. Hopefully someday I would create my own blue ocean, be a successful me.

week5, Attended the bday cele for the lady, hui ying, went to hophop cafe, rabbits are cute. And it was the first time i feel so comfortable to be with them. You annoyed each other no matter bday or nt, cracked up due to 3words - 鸡蛋糕.  JJLin got 金曲奖after so many years :')

week6, this mon received a couple pencilcase from mr pig. =)

Life doesnt always be good to you, stay positive & be brave to face it =)
Everything is gonna be fine someday, stay & focus on what u hv not what u dont.

After weeks of bad things happened, i learn to live. Endure. Accept.
You grow up when bad things happen, You learn from experiences & be a better ME.

Moments to reminisce 2013 !

New experience in my 20th life (1)
Joined an event named Intersociety interaction camp, together with another 7clubs/societies.
Went for the publicity audition, tried out girl2,girl3 but failed, ended up being "ghost" in the publicity video.
But, few days before the actual shooting day, they want me to be "lonely" in the video ( someone who is not so important but not too not important.. the one who indicates there's less interaction between uni students in uni life) i find it quite true. That's also the reason i joined clubs & events, to do n learn more things in uni life.

- day3 shooting. chinyi who came to watch me act-

-day3 shooting too. was playing with director's camera, pattern byk -

- the camp commander aka the director of the video, edward chew.
he is good, caring, we share problems we craps we learn tgt.
thank you very much. -

New experience in my 20th life (2)
Attended the very first concert in my life, JJLIN's concert.
I have been waiting it for years, like finally.
The most unbelievable 3hrs in my life! *goosebumps*
It was pretty awesome! I was surprised to see how they arrange & plan the storyline, the songs, the dance moves,how to grab & study audiences' mind.. ups and downs until we cant stop shouting "ENCORE".
Singing along with him, shouting his name, i love the environment, i love the design!
I love concert! 

- got his autographed poster 2days at kl fest bfore his concert, he saw me,
 yes he did! without shaking hand but he smiled at me =) -


- ME before concert , the fan the bracelet the purple 荧光棒!- 

- Purple sea that filled the whole stadium bukit jalil on the 7th dec-

- The back of the man i loved since primary, JJLin-

- The most enjoyable, memorable 3 hours in my life because of this man -

- He looked at me =D
thanks for the night -

New experience in my 20th life (3)
Hi, im braces girl now!
Due to the gum problem of my lateral incisor, i hv no choice but to wear braces.
It was painful on the first 2-3days, saliva coming out, cant chew, barely close my mouth, refused to take painkiller thought want to keep it until the day of my final exam ( but by the time final exam, not pain ady --)
No pain no gain, I am right fine.
Another painful day coming in the 28th of dec.
Gonna get a plan for my CNY ( dental appointment probably will clash with CNY either bfore/after).

- on the 30th of nov, celebrate my sis belated bday,
the 2nd day wearing braces, 

i dun look comfy with my braces that time
(still pain that time) -

New experience in my 20th life (4)
Sem break begins, christmas coming!
Went out with my beloved yeuharn the day after our last paper.

- yh with moon- 

- yeah! same pose, posing there is kind of awkward for me- 

- us! my babe since foundation 2011- 

- early greetings, merry christmas-

- I, personally like this purple colour decoration christmas tree very much!
purple! - 

- I am doing fine now! comfy with my braces ! -

Merry christmas & happy new year ^-^
New year, New hope, New challenge, New me, New you!
Keep fighting to be a better person! =)

回去的路..在哪？

到后来发现 其实只剩下自己。
不顺心的事 一波接一波。我很想放弃了。放弃所有。真的。

在别人面前一面很强似的，没人看见我脆弱得就因为一个字 而哭了。
我不掩饰自己，不爽就说，为了保护别人 甚至把自己当“臭人"，我在人眼里是多么的讨人厌。
对这世界我开始厌倦了 人与人的对话，
对这复杂的人际关系 我很想投降，

我一直不愿相信 世界是复杂的，换句话人是复杂的。
我的世界里 其实世界很简单，所有的事都是最简化的，我一直是那么坚持的。

我又慢慢开始失去方向，失去自我，又变得忧伤。
默默地脸是湿的，一分钟，十分钟，三十分钟，一个小时，慢慢睡着。。

我知道是自己偏激了，但我真的想放弃了，友情，爱情。

旧地重游之槟城 感想篇

槟城这地方我来了 大概是第三次, 第一次是六年级毕业旅行,第二次是跟家人,第三次 是跟不太熟的朋友, 有些可以说是初次认识 =)

这趟旅程选择了 乘搭ktm 去槟城。
9点晚上的ktm, 在ktm里大家都没睡饱,  大约5点凌晨到达butterworth, 再坐ferry到槟城.
ktm 太多声音了,很复杂 ,很难睡,但我偷偷眠了一个小时多。 =D
ktm也很冷. 是我第一次 也希望是最后一次 =P
很特别的体验。

到了butterworth 遇见很多穿着校服的学生 也有穿着上班服的..一起等ferry。
ferry 一到大家都加快脚步赶上ferry。
到了槟城才6点多,搭着飞快的公车到了升旗山附近..
在公车上 看着别人上下车..

** 大家为了不同的目标搭上公车, 上上下下的 就像人生中的过路人 不尽其数, 有的来了留下了 过不久又走了, 有的只是一面之缘。
突然想起一句话：“前世五百下回眸，才换来今生擦肩而过”
我到底回眸了多少次 才遇见我那么多的宝贝，我的家人，我的他，我的朋友？
相遇是种缘份。**

在槟城我又不爽他了，甚至闹分手。
我受不了他自己过马路，丢我一个人（当时我还发着梦），有一次差点要被车撞倒。
他认为我和他的朋友都可以混熟，但他忘了我才刚认识他们不久，他们没义务照顾我。
我认为他应该至少确保我是安全的，别人说牵她过马路是种体贴的事。
我真的不理他快大半天。
到了晚上他的女生朋友都过来问我怎么了。。我开始抱怨。
她们都说 得来不易，现在说分开说得轻松，等到真的发生就知道后果。
她们说 现在的他 可能有些是做得不好，但能确保下一个全部都好吗？
她们也说 他跟别的男生性格就不一样了，有时不能要求太多。
她们还说 如果选到像某某的你就完了。。

想想也对，他算是个很迁就我的人了，很疼我，也会听我唠叨，听我抱怨，还帮我拿包包。
我还想怎样？没有完美的吧。
** 没必要寻找一个完美的人，他不存在。与其花费一生找一个完美的人却知道自己其实不完美，不如去珍惜那个傻傻好事坏事都呆在你身边的那个他，但重点是他不能做错太严重的事。**


我又想到了一个问题，那么要怎么选择那个适合自己的人呢？
到底男人女人有多少种呢？
一次的旅行，我看到有对任何人都细心的男人，有对任何事都无所谓的男人，有只对重要的朋友比较好的男人，也有大男人。
说真的，我真的不会分，不会看。。
我会把自己那套想法套在他身上，我就是那么一个我。
很感恩 现在的他，都很迁就我。我是该改一点点啦~


第一次在海边游泳感觉还算不错，谢谢一直照顾我的他，好几次喝到海水 有够咸的！！
有机会 会去学游泳的！=）
谢谢每个帮过我的人。


在槟城 我放纵自己，狂吃狂喝，对我破了自己十点以后不吃东西的rule, 也破了不要无端端半夜才睡的rule，本想 好好休息 好好享受，却让自己食物中毒，肠胃炎。
**这教训自己 做人要有节制，一点点的限制是好事，至少不会让自己难受几天。**


跟没有太熟的朋友旅行 简简单单不需要顾虑太多，没什么需要讲心事。
但我还是希望能和我的宝贝们一起去旅行啦，像以前那样。

旅行只不过是偷偷逃避现实几天，回到现实 又要扛起很多责任。想到都累了。
也怪自己比较懒。无罪一身轻，我说 无责任真的一身轻 但学不到东西。

总结一下，我该看事情看得更广一点，不要执着，不要什么事都先发脾气！
希望自己能慢慢改变吧！=)
晚安了！

执着.

*我又要很老气的说起以前* XD
以前我会劝别人不要执着了。
现在反而自己执着起来了。

两天前，有这么一个她对我说：“什么事都好，家人友谊爱情都不要那么执着”。
无可否认，我变得很执着，对家人，对情人，对朋友，对一起工作的伙伴，对自己。
这句话，在我脑海里转了两天。。

今天，负责某个活动的junior跑来要我帮她检查proposal 是否ok..
如果是三天前的我，我肯定不爽那个负责这活动的主席和副主席, 明明就是他们的责任，他们必须确保自己的秘书知道自己要做什么，要check proposal. 然后，90% 好了才交给music club的主席和副主席检查。　
今天我换了个方式，好声好气的慢慢教(其实自己也不是很懂) 。做了一些活动主席副主席该做的事。我竟然没有骂她，没有怨他们，还赞她good effort，一些我以前不会做的事。

感觉没什么不同，但我懂至少她比较愿意，做得比较开心。
我说过不会也不想再去在乎别人的想法，但要懂得帮自己的一些伙伴的想法，对症下药，才有用。他们做的开心，我不会gek sam.

人际关系这门学问。。
对我来说　只要有人支持，有人愿意服从，我就心满意足了。
不然每次斗得你死我活的，太没意思了！

放下执着，开心会跟着来的　对不？